EMOTIONS - FELLINGS

Last time when I got into this situation,

Nothing happened to me.

Just a simple problem between my frd's and their partner,

would have caused irritation and depression on me.

Imagine this time, when in fact, something not good is happening to me

I know I shouldn't take these pills now,

But I just can't help. Watever.

I don't care whether I will get depressed or not,

or whether my emotions will go up and down or not,

coz I'm already depressed.

In fact, I'm really sad.

Really really sad.

It hurt.

I personally don't wanna stay home.

I know, staying home gives me more room to think,

and that means I'll get even worse.

 But at the same time, I want to stay home,

coz I want to be online, waiting for you.

I stayed one day home, and I didn't see you.

I'm afraid you are already avoiding me.

Am I thinking too much?

Is it just effects of the pills?

or is it what?

I dono. Im confused. It's complicated.

Worse comes to worse,

I'll be bt myself again, which is no big deal.

Just that, I don't want to give up something that i like.

I won't actually give up.

But this time, is really out of my control.

There is nothing i can do.

"Nobody knows, nobody knows that I sometimes cry..."